Monday, 26 October 2015

A Quick Review on What I've Learned

 And now comes the time to recap what has happened in the last six months. For those who are new to my blog (welcome!!), I have had this blog up for quite some time, but then decided to enter a Dominican convent in Australia last January. I spent six months there, but decided that it wasn't God's will for me to be a nun. In any case, I'm very happy I'm back. Here are some main points I learned throughout the experience that will hopefully help those discerning, those who have left the convent themselves,and everyone else in between.

Don't worry about the future - If there's anything I've learned, it's that everything will work out in the end. God isn't just going to leave you on your own to figure out things - He's there to support you every step of the way. And yes, maybe sometimes it seems like everything you dreamed of for your future is collapsing, but you have to hold on to the conviction that it won't be like that forever, and that God will make sure you find your proper path.

The right decision is the best decision - Those who have left the convent can wholeheartedly agree that though it's great to finally decide your place in the world, it isn't easy leaving the convent. After all, being in a convent, you're told repeatedly, "you're a chosen soul," "God picked you out of millions," "this is the highest place you could be." But I need to make a very important point. Yes nuns have an important role to play, but so do you - not being a nun. No matter where you are, that's where God wants you and you have been "specially chosen" for that position. It took me a very long time to wrap my head around this, so I beg the readers to convince themselves of this truth. Never think that God loves other souls more than you, or that you're not chosen. You are chosen, you are worth the infinite, and you are loved - no matter what your position in life is.

Be kind to yourself - When trying to figure out your future, things can get very messy. Doubt can creep in, discouragement, melancholy, the list goes on. And in this very important time in your life, it's easy to be very hard on yourself. So please, try your best to be kind and gentle to yourself. Understand that this can be a scary time, and making mistakes right now is expected. Also, don't forget while you begin to be more understanding to yourself, that God is understanding (a million times more than you are) right along with you. There's a tendency to think that you understand yourself the best and God is there just to judge you as soon as you fall. But really, we should be asking God to be as understanding as He is towards us. He is ready always to forgive us for our imperfections, and fully acknowledges our weak human nature. He's not out to get you, He's there to patiently lift you up and support you in this difficult time.

Therefore my dear readers, if you're trying to figure out things in your life, be gentle to yourself in this difficult time. Our Lady is there to support you the whole way, and no matter what you choose, will love and care for you as the infinitely precious soul that you are.

Sunday, 25 October 2015

Guess Who's Back :)

Firstly, I need to apologize for taking so long to write on here. I suppose there's something intimidating about leaving to enter the Dominicans, then coming back and having to admit that you're back home and have decided being a nun wasn't for you. I'll get into details in later posts, but I would just like you all to know that I am in fact back and am ready once again to write! It would be an honour if you all decided to read my blog once again, I'm preparing to write articles on some very interesting topics. 

I also wanted to point out that I've completely given my blog a new look. Though I'm sticking with the theme of "the depths of the catacombs," I wanted to give it a different feel, since over the past months I was in Australia, I've changed as a person. My blog used to focus on perseverance, fighting temptation, and mortification. I want these next few months to focus on the inner soul - how to be patient and understanding to yourself in the spiritual life, how to have peace of soul in our modern world, and how, though we are sinners, to understand we are still loved by God. I'll be writing articles that not only will be helpful for those who are having a hard time, but will also be helpful for me to convince myself of these truths.

So please, join me once more in my quest for happiness. I will try my best as I used to :)