Sunday, 24 January 2016

Depression in God's Eyes

As Catholics there's one thing we don't want to admit to people. In the eyes of the world we want to always be strong, we want to be the Joan of Arc of society, we never want to appear like we're going through something. But this mentality needs to be fought, because it isn't true. Our whole religion revolves around the crucifix. And what does this crucifix represent? Suffering and overcoming it. Therefore, as Catholics, we shouldn't be afraid to admit to the fact that sometimes, yes, we get depressed. 

Whether we like it or not, some of us will have to face depression at some point. We'll have to wake up one day, and simply not want to get out of bed. But if I've learned anything, it's that we can trigger our worst triggers with consolations. And with these consolations we can not only help ourselves, but those around us who need this help too.

Firstly, we must remember that God is watching over us. Just because you're in pain doesn't mean God has stopped loving you. In fact, because you're going through this, He's watching over you with particular love and kindness. He knows how you feel, after all, he was abandoned in the Garden of Olives by His closest friends. He understands your pain and sees His reflection in your soul. Do you realize how happy He is to see someone in this broken world actually willing to offer up a sacrifice for Him!? This is huge! You represent the suffering Lord in our modern age. You're the one He was talking about when He said, "I was hungry, and you gave me to eat." Or perhaps, "I was hungry, and you fed me not." You give others around you the opportunity to serve God. You're another Christ, and the merit you're gathering up for heaven is more than you could ever imagine. You will receive your hundred fold on this earth, and the next. God is using you as an example of His suffering love, and is testing souls through you. He wants to see souls offer up acts of charity to Him because of you. You are the "least of My Brethren," and the light shines brighter from the darkness in your soul than it would if you were in consolation. Because now you're more Christlike than ever before.

Also, never forget that you won't always be in tribulation. God only gives us what we can handle, and when He sees us collapsing from the weight, He will help us get up. He can barely stand seeing you suffer like this, He's only allowing it for the greater good. Another thing to remember, is that if they don't repent and amend, those who made you suffer will feel the wrath of God. After all, they hurt a soul very close to God. They hurt the soul who reflected the crucified Savior. 

And so suffering soul, life will go on. Some days will be dark, but the days to come will be even brighter. Heaven won't ever look at you the same after this. Because you're their living martyr.